"Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee." Hebrews 13:5
Our Heavenly Father knows everything about everyone He has created. From the number of hair on or heads to the likes and dislikes we all have. The bible says for our conversation to be without "covetousness." If all we talk about is the things we hope to gain because of how well it does for another person, where is our faith? God knows our every like and dislike, therefore he will supply things that are good for us as individuals. "And be content with such things as ye have," God is our Jehovah Jireh, (Gen. 22:14) our provider! When we are content with such things as we have, we are better able notice the things God blesses us with. "For he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee." God is true to his word. He even sent Jesus to walk among flesh and to die on the cross.1 Corinthians 6:19 reads, "What? know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own?" God went as far as to provide a piece of Him to dwell in us.
I have had some ups and some downs, but God has never left me. When I was blind in the world God watched me, He even pulled me from ditches that would lead me to the fiery pits. I can remember a time when I knew not God. A night I decided to runaway after an argument with my caretaker. It had gotten late and was so dark. I had not a clue where I was going. I remember how fearing that something would happen to me gave me the courage to as someone for directions. I went up to a house and an older couple came to the door they warned me that I shouldn't be out so late and gave me the directions I had asked for. The man said to me "Be careful, there's a dead end around the way."
As I followed the directions given, I kept pondering just where the dead end was. Soon I had began to feel something brushing my face as I walked. It was so dark only the stars kept me from going in circles. I felt tears falling on to my check, I didn't feel like I was crying. My heart was pounding. I started to feel like I was walking down a hill, and I was! I stumbled and I knew then it was time to turn around. By the time I made it to where I was going I had realized that "I" am not the one who carries me.
Now, when I get that urge to "want" something because someone else has it, I think to myself: is that good for me? If I need something, I look back at what I have and decide whether or not the things I have are totally useless: can I be content with what I already have? Better it is to give than to receive. I am now working on a new goal. That is: when I want something "just because" I must give up something; and after I give up something, I must think deeply about if I still "want." After all God will never leave us, nor forsake us. That makes me even more thankful. He watches what we do. He studies us. If what I want is something that will not hinder me, I know He'll provide a way for me to have it. For what is a man profited, if he shall gain the whole world, and lose his own soul? or what shall a man give in exchange for his soul? (Matt. 16:26) I know I can't exchange or pay my way into heaven, but at the same time, I don't want to have so many possessions that I have little time to focus on God. The night I ran-away, God had mercy on me. I could have fell off the dead end and died that night. On that night I didn't know anything about Jesus other than Christmas. I didn't even know what Easter was really for. Now that I know Jesus and God's plan for us, I can do all I can to make it into Heaven and help someone else along the way.
